It's my birthday!

Well here it is the big day. Not so excited about it nowadays. Since this is one of the last remaining birthdays beginning with a 4# it's a little scarier I must admit. I began to think back on birthdays past, my cavalier attitude towards turning 30 and 40. I know quite a few women who were quite nervous, freaked out about those ages and I could never understand why. Here I am looking at 50 and now I get it. Of course I am getting ahead of myself now but still 50?! Where did all the years go? It seems just like yesterday I was celebrating my Mother's 50th birthday-it can't be my turn! No fair! I am not my mother's age!

Today is my birthday, will spend time with my sons, sister and some of my friends and be thankful for all I have and how far I've come. I am not going to worry today about tomorrow. Happy Birthday Erika!

I get a comunication from my friend(DF-Darling Friend) yesterday-one sentence, "You need to update your blog, Ms.". So here I am. I admit I have been lax on this. I figured no one was reading this except for myself. I was wrong. When I noticed on DF's blog she actually had a link to mine. Then I got scared. Other people could and probably were reading it. Wow. DF found it on her own, I think because I don't remember telling anyone about it. That means someone will actually be able to post their opinion about my sometimes too insightful ramblings. I am not sure how I feel about that. On the one hand I feel very empowered and la di dah about it. On the other hand, I feel like I did when I was 16 and my creative writing teacher read my creations to the class. I would look around to make sure everyone was listening and not pointing to their heads and making the crazy sign. So now I am on the hook. I will put more out there since I know at least one person is interested in what I have to say. I will have to be more diligent about my posts. Thanks, Darling Friend, for kicking me into response. I promise to do better.